Day 18

9.6.18 Day 18
Weight: Didn't weigh in 
Short Weight loss goal: 5lb
Long Weight loss goal: 180lbs
Am Blood Sugar: 152...residual ice coffee and pretzel pizza effect
Pm Blood Sugar:
Daily goal for 9.6.18: Rezoom!

Breakfast
(P)  2 eggs over easy                      
(G)  sweet potato                   
(Fr)  blueberries and a banana

Moments of truth

Here is my truth...I completely forgot to log what I was eating on friday. In fact, it is now Tuesday 9/11 and I have no idea what happened to the last 5 days. I know this...i had sugar. I had flour. I got sick from said sugar and flour. I carted my children to swim lessons and crossfit class, went grocery shopping, prepped my meals for Monday and Tuesday (i'll get to Monday in a bit) and I cleaned up water in my basement from the monsoon we had last week. I bought an air purifier because the rank smell of musty basement carpet made me gag on Monday. 

Every day isn't perfect. There will be days that completely fall apart. it is life. You just get back on that horse and try again. You will fall again, too....but it will be ok.

Day 17

9.5.18 Day 17
Weight: Didn't weigh in 
Short Weight loss goal: 5lb
Long Weight loss goal: 180lbs
Am Blood Sugar: 121
Pm Blood Sugar:
Daily goal for 9.15.18: No snacking. 

Breakfast
(P)   Breakfast rounds again...seriously, they are so good.                  
(G)                     
(Fr)  

Lunch
(P)   eggs w/salsa
(V)   
(Fa)  
(Fr)  apple


Dinner
(P)   2 pieces of pretzel crust pizza
(V)   carrots, peppers, 
(S)   
(Ft)  dill dip (sour cream/mayo and dill)

Also had some kettle chips-not a lot because too much salt makes my tongue hurt. i'm weird. i get canker sores from too much salt and sugar.

Day 17 Summary
Tonight was my kickoff meeting for my women's group and we had our meeting at this amazing brewery/restaurant in our historic warehouse district. I was in charge of the food so I had ordered fresh veggies with dip, kettle chips, and then 3 pizzas for our ladies. They have pretzel crust pizza and it is amazing. Not going to lie. I had two pieces. My lines were fuzzy at dinner.

Moments of truth
I did not have a alcoholic beverage. I had water with lime....but.....one of my co-workers who is also a good friend had her daughter (who also babysits my boys) stop by the office and her daughter brought me a iced coffee. So so sweet of her to think of me and I love iced coffee. She said it didn't have sugar in it, but definitely had some because it was so incredibly sweet. With the salt from the few kettle chips I had to the iced coffee gift, my tongue is one giant canker sore. I couldn't speak by 9pm tonight because it hurt to move my tongue. 

No more kettle chips or iced coffee from Dunkin Donuts. 

Day 16

9.4.18 Day 16
Weight: Didn't weigh in 
Short Weight loss goal: 10 lb
Long Weight loss goal: 180 lbs
Am Blood Sugar: 138
Pm Blood Sugar: 
Daily goal for 9.4.18 :Keep those lines. Tonight is bingo night!

Breakfast
(P) almond butter and pecans                        
(G) oatmeal                    
(Fr) banana and blueberries

Breakfast rounds are so good. Once I figure out how this whole blog thing works, I will posting my recipes to share with everyone.  

Lunch
(P)   lemon pepper tuna
(V)   romaine lettuce, tomatoes, carrots
(Fa)  salad dressing
(Fr)  apple


Dinner
(P)   cashews, deli meat
(V)   carrots, tomatos
(S)   
(Ft)  


Day 14 summary
The day went really well until dinner. I had bingo and i brought my carrots and tomatoes and had some nuts but when i got home, i just had some deli meat and went to bed. I was full from the carrots and just needed a little bit more protein.

Moments of truth
Dang bingo. I had some M&M's and a diet pepsi. 

Day 15

9.3.18 Day 15
Weight: 233 (-7)
Short Weight loss goal: 10lb
Long Weight loss goal: 180lbs
Am Blood Sugar:145
Pm Blood Sugar:
Daily goal for 9.3.18: Continue with bright lines

Breakfast
(P)    2 eggs                    
(G)    sweet potato                 
(Fr)   banana and blueberries

Avocado Cauliflower "toast" via Delish.com

Lunch
(P)   eggs
(V)   cauliflower
(Fa)  avocado
(Fr)  banana

My version. Pinterest fail.

Delish.com has great BLE recipes. They are not marketed "BLE" but they are clean eating recipes that can be easily adapted to BLE. I love avocado toast but I don't like using my breakfast grains on bread (the price on the some of the flourless bread is redunk and I would never eat it all). Anyhoo, I thought this was the perfect recipe for me since I have 4 bags of riced cauliflower taking up space in my freezer (.89 each at Aldi-huge deal..i have big dreams with one day attempting cauliflower crust pizza hence the stockpile of frozen riced cauliflower). I couldn't quite figure out how to equate a half a head of cauliflower to a bag of riced cauliflower. So I think i didn't have enough binder (egg) to make the patties. I finally got one done, but as I was cooking my eggs I got distracted and they became overcooked while my avocado was still not ripe enough to mash, so it was just diced avocados. The good news is that it tasted delish...as I expected it to since it came from Delish.com. 

"All the sugar and twice the caffeine" Seriously?!

Dinner
(P) cheese   
(V) lettuce, tomato, cucumber  
(S)   
(Ft)  mayo and avocado

I took the boys to the National Mississippi River Museum here in our hometown. It was raining, it was labor day, we were lazy all weekend because of the weather and the boys were bouncing around the house like a couple kids who had downed a 12 pack of Jolt Soda (they didn't..do they even make it anymore?). So we went down to the museum where they can touch the sting rays, watch a movie about airplanes, play in the water (which is ionic since I wouldn't let them play outside because it was raining) and see the paddlefish, catfish, Big Mama the alligator and so much more. We were there for 2 hours and I realized we needed dinner! So we got Jimmy John's...my lines got blurry.

Day 15 Summary
Good news: I finally lost 5! Next goal is 10lbs down!
Bad news: I had flour. 

Moments of truth
The sweet smell of baked bread gets me every time. Dang you Sara Lee corporate bakery with your warm bread that fills our downtown! You enchantress you! And you, Jimmy Johns with your "free smells"! I curse you! I would like to say I didn't have any chips like I would have pre-BLE...so I got that going for me.

Day 14

9.2.18 Day (14)
Weight: 236
Short Weight loss goal: 5lb
Long Weight loss goal: 180lbs
Am Blood Sugar: 172
Pm Blood Sugar: 161
Daily goal for (date): try not to die

Breakfast
(P)    2 eggs                    
(G)    sweet potato                 
(Fr)   banana and blueberries

Lunch
(P)   
(V)   
(Fa)  
(Fr)  


Dinner
(P)   
(V)   
(S)   
(Ft)  


Day 14 Summary
Ugh. It took everything I had to make it to noon. I woke up with a stomachache and heartburn. I was eating tums at church and then had breakfast with my family to celebrate my father-in-laws birthday. After breakfast I went grocery shopping and as soon as I got home and put the groceries away and crawled into bed in pain. For the next 18 hours I battled nausea, diarrhea, and stomach cramps. I spent the rest of the day in bed and the mere thought of food made me gag. 

Moments of truth
Gatorade tastes terrible.

Day 13

9.1.18 Day 13
Weight: 236lbs
Short Weight loss goal: 5lb
Long Weight loss goal: 180lbs
Am Blood Sugar: 140
Pm Blood Sugar: 142
Daily goal for 9.1.18: Stay hydrated (it is going to be humid), make wise choices. Keep your goal in site (1 lb away!)

Breakfast
(P)   three eggs over easy                     
(G)   sweet potato                   
(Fr)  

Lunch
(P)   deviled eggs, black beans, black eyed peas
(V)   tomatoes
(Fa)  mayo
(Fr)  grapes and watermelon


Dinner
(P)   steak
(V)   
(S)   
(Ft)  


Day 13 Summary
We are celebrating my father-in-law's 65th birthday today. A year and a half ago he was developed a strep infection that moved to his artifical knee which caused him to develop sepsis. He spent over 3 months in the University of Iowa and then our local hospital for physical rehab. We thought we had lost him when his kidneys started to shut down, but he made it through though he is now confined to a wheelchair. This is a wonderful celebration that we didn't know we would get to witness.

I opted to put off lunch until later since I knew we were getting together at 2:30. The food that was there was deviled eggs, grapes, some delicious but bad snack mix and cowboy cavier (black beans, black eyed peas, corn, tomatos, cilantro. Dinner was steak and watermelon, baked beans and a pasta salad. I did not eat the beans or pasta salad because they just didn't appeal to me.  But I overeat because I felt so sick that I had heartburn. Severly. 

Moments of truth
I drank a lot of water today to help curb the cravings and I tried to stay bright, but the lines got blurry. Even if you are staying bright, if you over eat on good food, your body can still feel bad. Mine feels horrible. I know I will be sick tomorrow.

Day 12

8/31/18 Day 12
Weight: Didn't weigh in 
Short Weight loss goal: 5lb
Long Weight loss goal: 180lbs
Am Blood Sugar: 162
Pm Blood Sugar: 126
Daily goal for 8/13/18: Stay focused. Increase water. Take my medication. Enjoy the moment.

Breakfast
(P)  2 eggs                        
(G)  sweet potato                   
(Fr) mango and blueberries

Lunch
(P)   ham steak
(V)   brocoli
(Fa)  ghee on my brocoli
(Fr)  apple


Dinner
(P)   two pieces of sausage and mushroom pizza
(V)   
(S)   
(Ft)  


Day 12 Summary
The day went really well but with friday night came it got fuzzy. We didn't eat until 7pm and we ordered pizza. i had two small pizzas and a lot of water. then i went to bed.

Moments of truth
I have been in an emotional funk lately. Like a curtain has covered my feelings. I worry about my kids going to college and being able to afford it despite having a 529 savings plan for them. I get envious of everyone's travel photos and how often they get to go on adventures-things I want to do but can't afford it, but yet they seem to go multiple times a year. I get down when I can't do the small things like get a massage or pedicure because I need to pay for guitar lessons (they are cheaper than renting a saxophone since we have the guitar already). It all just weighs on me.