Day 22

9.10.18 Day 22
Weight: Didn't weigh in 
Short Weight loss goal: 5lb
Long Weight loss goal: 180lbs
Am Blood Sugar:
Pm Blood Sugar:
Daily goal for (date):

Moments of truth
For a few years now I have been battling some unnamed issue. It starts off with upper GI pain that comes in waves of pain. It is associated with heartburn, sour smelling burps, nausea and diarrhea. It tends to manifest its ugly head at 2 or 3 am, waking me from a deep and fairly restful sleep only to make me unable to get any rest for the next 12 hours at least. I have been able to combat the nausea, which for me, is the worst offender with some prescription anti-nausea medication. The sour stomach burps can be remedied with over the counter medication like ranitidine but I get so tired from the medication, lack of sleep and stomach pains that it takes all I can muster to get the kids to school. 

I looked like a hot mess. Felt like it too. 

When I finally was able to get a little rest, I woke up to the gross, musty scent of wet carpet. We had some rain from the recent midwest monsoons seep into our basement from the garage and while part of our basement has tile, which is easy to clean up, there is a part that has carpet. About 5' x 5' section got wet and we have been using a shop vac to suck up the water but it was not getting dry...and now it smelled like death. So I dragged my sick, tired, hot mess self to the store to find a air purifier so I can at least make the smell not so bad. I also heaved my way through another round of shop vac action before I just couldn't go on. My husband came home and ripped up the carpet to dry the pad and underneath.

Good times. 

So eating wasn't a big thing for me yesterday. But i did see a pattern. I haven't had a bout with this issue for awhile. Once i stopped eating sugar and flour, i had zero heartburn or bloating. it was awesome. Last week though I fell off the wagon and had some flour and the next day boom instant sickies. Sunday I had a sub from subway and some candy from the parade and that night i was sick. 

I wonder how many more times I will have to get sick before i realize the sugar and flour are not my friend and are killing me. 

Day 21

9.9.18 Day 21
Weight: Didn't weigh in 
Short Weight loss goal: 5lb
Long Weight loss goal: 180lbs
Am Blood Sugar:
Pm Blood Sugar:
Daily goal for (date):

Moments of truth
I live about 1 hour and 20 minutes from where I grew up. I have family and friends back home and this past couple weeks have been hard for my community. Part of our town suffered severe flooding from a 500 year flood. Many were still cleaning up and waiting for FEMA or other funding to help get their homes back in order. This weekend it was their annual community festival - Wild West Days. Carnival, beer tent, horseshoe tournament, kickball tourney, demolition derby and on Sunday was the big parade. I decided to head back home with the boys so i could support my community and see my friends and family. The parade is a wonderful 45 minutes parade filled with marching bands, UW band made an appearance with Bucky Badger, kids on stilts, lots of candy and floats and your mandated tractor appearance (it is Wisconsin after all). The boys loved the candy. I loved the sense of community. 

I made some not very good choices in the day...diet soda, samples of candy, a subway sandwich for lunch. It is so easy to say "Oh one piece isn't going to hurt" but it creates this avalanche of piss poor decisions. so when I got home, I started prepping my lunches for the week. Hummus, lunch meat, lot's of cut veggies all packages in my little containers ready to go. It is the best I can do. 

Day 20

9.8.18 Day 20
Weight: Didn't weigh in 
Short Weight loss goal: 5lb
Long Weight loss goal: 180lbs
Am Blood Sugar:
Pm Blood Sugar:
Daily goal for 9.8.18:

Moments of truth
This is a graphic of my life. Some days are great, some days not so great. Some days i'm going in circles. 

Today is Saturday. My youngest has swim lessons on Saturday. At 8:00am. tell me again why I thought this was a good idea? I have no idea what the hell I am doing. My plan is to make a grocery list while he is swimming. For all those who think I should be watching my child swim-please. Stop. He is in the capable hands of a lifeguard. I don't need to be eagle eyeing his class to see if he is behaving, shouting encouragement or sideline coaching. I was a swim instructor and coach for a very very long time and I detested those parents who feel that they know more than me..the one teaching the class or coaching the team. I refuse to be that mom. I just want the kid to not die in the water. I'm not anticipating an Olympic medalist in butterfly. I just don't want him to die. 

Anyhoo, my plan was coffee, pool, grocery list. it was going fine until i realized he didn't have any underwear to change into and so he would be going commando after he got changed out of his suit. 

Next up is grocery shopping. While I am dealing with discount shopping at its finest (i'm looking at you Walmart and Aldi) my husband took our oldest to his kids Crossfit class. I was on pick up duty. Then groceries put away, feed the kids lunch and then get prepared for church. I made it to 3pm before i realized I didn't have breakfast or lunch and now I can't find my keys. 

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I DON'T HAVE ANY PROTEIN, PEOPLE!! I LOSS MY GOL-DANG MIND!

I have no idea what I had for dinner. I still don't know where my keys are.

Day 19

9.7.18 Day (19)
Weight: Didn't weigh in 
Short Weight loss goal: 5lb
Long Weight loss goal: 180lbs
Am Blood Sugar:
Pm Blood Sugar:
Daily goal for 9.7.18:

Moments of truth
It is Friday, but i'm writing this on Tuesday 9/11. Friday is a short day at work. We are done at 2pm. I love this day, not because it is Friday, but because it is the one day of the week I get to pick up my kids right after school. They don't have to go to aftercare, they get to go right to the dismissal and run right to me. In the summer time, Friday's are when we go on our adventures...maybe for a hike, or to the museum or explore a cave. Today is BOGO blizzard at Dairy Queen. So we are going there so the boys can get ice cream. What am I getting? Diet Coke. I know. I know. Artificial sweeteners! Poison! Yeah, yeah. I get it. 

Is soda a trigger for me? If you had asked me that on Friday I would say "NO!" in that defensive and incredulous way knowing that you a.) never thought about it that way or b.) deep down knew the answer was not "no". Looking back, I would have to say that diet soda is a trigger. It makes me crave salty. It makes me crave more diet soda. It makes me think "hey it is zero calories. its not a big deal." but it is a big deal. It is like the Walmart of healthy choices. 

The Walmart of healthy choices? What the duck? You don't like Walmart? Fine, it is the Target of healthy choices. You go to Target to buy 1 thing-toothpaste. Fine. Easy in. Easy out with your $2.99 tube of Colgate, but then you spy the cutest cup in the housewares section, so you stop and OMG it is only $3.95! What a steal! It is so adorbs! You must get it even though you have 4 shelves full of coffee cups and you live alone. As you are wandering back to the front of the store, you remember that you need to pick up some sparkling water because you are trying to steer clear of soda. GET OUT! Sparkling water is on sale! I need a cart now! Long story short you have made an entire loop of the Target store and you have a cart full of stuff and your bank account is $195 less than it was 15 minutes ago. Go YOU! 

That is how diet soda is the Target (or Walmart) of healthy choices. You have every intention of doing the right thing but that ONE thing triggers a reaction that ends up not being a healthy choice. 

Day 18

9.6.18 Day 18
Weight: Didn't weigh in 
Short Weight loss goal: 5lb
Long Weight loss goal: 180lbs
Am Blood Sugar: 152...residual ice coffee and pretzel pizza effect
Pm Blood Sugar:
Daily goal for 9.6.18: Rezoom!

Breakfast
(P)  2 eggs over easy                      
(G)  sweet potato                   
(Fr)  blueberries and a banana

Moments of truth

Here is my truth...I completely forgot to log what I was eating on friday. In fact, it is now Tuesday 9/11 and I have no idea what happened to the last 5 days. I know this...i had sugar. I had flour. I got sick from said sugar and flour. I carted my children to swim lessons and crossfit class, went grocery shopping, prepped my meals for Monday and Tuesday (i'll get to Monday in a bit) and I cleaned up water in my basement from the monsoon we had last week. I bought an air purifier because the rank smell of musty basement carpet made me gag on Monday. 

Every day isn't perfect. There will be days that completely fall apart. it is life. You just get back on that horse and try again. You will fall again, too....but it will be ok.

Day 17

9.5.18 Day 17
Weight: Didn't weigh in 
Short Weight loss goal: 5lb
Long Weight loss goal: 180lbs
Am Blood Sugar: 121
Pm Blood Sugar:
Daily goal for 9.15.18: No snacking. 

Breakfast
(P)   Breakfast rounds again...seriously, they are so good.                  
(G)                     
(Fr)  

Lunch
(P)   eggs w/salsa
(V)   
(Fa)  
(Fr)  apple


Dinner
(P)   2 pieces of pretzel crust pizza
(V)   carrots, peppers, 
(S)   
(Ft)  dill dip (sour cream/mayo and dill)

Also had some kettle chips-not a lot because too much salt makes my tongue hurt. i'm weird. i get canker sores from too much salt and sugar.

Day 17 Summary
Tonight was my kickoff meeting for my women's group and we had our meeting at this amazing brewery/restaurant in our historic warehouse district. I was in charge of the food so I had ordered fresh veggies with dip, kettle chips, and then 3 pizzas for our ladies. They have pretzel crust pizza and it is amazing. Not going to lie. I had two pieces. My lines were fuzzy at dinner.

Moments of truth
I did not have a alcoholic beverage. I had water with lime....but.....one of my co-workers who is also a good friend had her daughter (who also babysits my boys) stop by the office and her daughter brought me a iced coffee. So so sweet of her to think of me and I love iced coffee. She said it didn't have sugar in it, but definitely had some because it was so incredibly sweet. With the salt from the few kettle chips I had to the iced coffee gift, my tongue is one giant canker sore. I couldn't speak by 9pm tonight because it hurt to move my tongue. 

No more kettle chips or iced coffee from Dunkin Donuts. 

Day 16

9.4.18 Day 16
Weight: Didn't weigh in 
Short Weight loss goal: 10 lb
Long Weight loss goal: 180 lbs
Am Blood Sugar: 138
Pm Blood Sugar: 
Daily goal for 9.4.18 :Keep those lines. Tonight is bingo night!

Breakfast
(P) almond butter and pecans                        
(G) oatmeal                    
(Fr) banana and blueberries

Breakfast rounds are so good. Once I figure out how this whole blog thing works, I will posting my recipes to share with everyone.  

Lunch
(P)   lemon pepper tuna
(V)   romaine lettuce, tomatoes, carrots
(Fa)  salad dressing
(Fr)  apple


Dinner
(P)   cashews, deli meat
(V)   carrots, tomatos
(S)   
(Ft)  


Day 14 summary
The day went really well until dinner. I had bingo and i brought my carrots and tomatoes and had some nuts but when i got home, i just had some deli meat and went to bed. I was full from the carrots and just needed a little bit more protein.

Moments of truth
Dang bingo. I had some M&M's and a diet pepsi.